Sunday, 25 March 2012

Smoking saved my life

Below is a wee tale from a friend , many thanks for this wonderful story

 

 

 

 

 

Long story short: I was abused as a child through to my teens by my father (in pretty much all senses of the word). No-one read the distress signals I sent out. The whole lot got buried, *I* got buried - pretty much a walking shell. By 24 I was desperately unhappy, made a serious attempt to end my life. I received a compulsory counselling session - I was asked about my parents, which (at the time) seemed a very odd thing to ask - the whole of my childhood was blurred so much I believed the whole problem was me, nothing to do with my parents. A whole can of worms got opened up. Over the years I sank into deeper depression, tried again to take my life. Then at 30 I began to notice something. I noticed that people who smoked benefitted from it in several ways - firstly it acts as a crutch (and I didn't have any of those)..... when you walk into a room full of people you don't know, rather than be swallowed whole by your awkward shyness, your tobacco tin is a friend. It's ALWAYS there. You can sit by yourself, roll yourself a cigarette, smoke it and watch the whole world go by without feeling out of place anymore. Secondly, it buys you time (strangely enough!). I'd noticed with my ex husband (who smoked) that when anyone asked him a question, the time it took him to inhale, hold, and exhale bought him time to think about his answer, how to respond. Thirdly, there's a real sense of community amongst smokers that is often missing from the non-smoking world. Got no papers? You can go and ask anther smoker for one (somehow the need gives you the courage to ask!). Got no light? Other smokers will gladly share and in so doing, conversations are struck up that in all probability wouldn't have otherwise (if you're shy). Got papers, light, but no tobacco? You may well find someone with tobacco but no papers or light - that mutual need encourages sharing!
To some it may sound a dumb way of going about things but at 30 I was digging myself into a hole deeper and deeper. I had 3 kids who needed me by that time. I HAD to do something to turn my life around. Within a week of teaching myself to smoke, I decided to smoke a little of the substance that changes the way you see EVERYTHING! The one that expands your mind, opens out your world view and shows you the Bigger picture. From there there was no turning back - I was on my way to self-healing! And here I am, 49 in a few months and a changed person! And that's how it saved my life!

 

 

 

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